Sad
That summer completely reshaped how I deal with people. I am always watching, listening, observing. I never volunteer information and have mastered the question that sounds like an answer. I never again want to be in the position of being where I am not wanted, with people who don’t want me around.
So it is that I don’t make friends easily. And I have no delusions that any relationship is permanent.
People come and they go and all you can hope for is that you notice when they’ve left.
Unfortunately, I didn’t quite internalize that lesson as well as I thought I had…somehow I still managed to convince myself that some relationships were permanent. Mah Bad. (This stupid project is undoing a lot of the ‘healing’ I’ve done in the past two months and is starting to feel very much like emotional cutting. Grrr arrrgghh.) I am so Ghez.
HAHAHAAHA I haven’t changed a bit:
I’ve got like four moods: confused, bitter, angry and whimsical.
Usually in that order.
July 24th, 2008 at 10:13 am
So now that you have a new place to go where they’ll give you money every couple of weeks, I guess you’re back to full time blogging eh?
BTW, congrats to the patient mofo who unscrewed your blog. May his invoice make your eyes bleed. Experience is a dear school.
July 24th, 2008 at 4:39 pm
Eh, spoke too soon. It’s still fugged up. You get what you pay for.